Friday, June 25, 2021

Going out

I went to a Japanese restaurant but it wasn’t a Japanese restaurant 

It was a Puerto Rican restaurant with a Japanese coat of face paint 

A mask meant to give you a sense of authenticity but upon closer inspection

Is rendered nothing more than a superficial imitation

And that's what i pay for

I pay for the imitation so I can feel closer to the culture I want to know

But that's all I’m getting

An imitation 

I always thought the world would be so much bigger than it ended up being

There is an ocean

An Oceans Of oceans on top of an ocean of oceans

Water as far as a place farther than the universe

Blue on blue

High on deep

And the line between them 

stretches forever

Time stands still when nothing changes

float sink or swim as much you like

For in this ocean

Nothing ever changes

Try as you might you'll never see that land

All you have is what's right in front of you. The cold ocean will not condense and make itself smaller no matter how hard you want it to.

Its vastness is incalculable to you

It goes beyond understanding

Beyond reason

Beyond space

Beyond time

There is nothing out there for you

And even if there was

It's beyond you or any of your descendants to reach it

Land as intangible as the stars above

All you have is endless water 

endless sky

And the stars that follow you wherever you go

They keep you company

Take solace in what you have

And don't go chasing waterfalls


Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Meta-life

We see reality only through a lens of perception.

What we see is not reality itself but a form a reality that we can understand.

When you pick up a rock.

A rock is not hard.

A rock is a rock.

Hardness is only an idea of relative density we gave rocks to compare them with softer things like dirt or feathers.

Therefore life is what we perceive it to be.

And in the same way what we believe can also be put through this lens of truth.

So in order to really understand life we must perceive from different points of view.

Monday, June 26, 2017

Ever since,

Ever since, nothing has been the same.
Ever since, I've always felt numb.
Ever since, i havent been able to catch my breath.
Ever since, i haven't been trusting.
Ever since, ive been smoking a lot.
Ever since, i go out with my friends almost every night.
Ever since, i drink like there's no tomorrow because,
Ever since you left me, i feel there is none.
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Ever since, i talk to everyone.
Ever since, im the center of attention.
Ever since, I've been living my life fearlessly.
Ever since, i work twice as hard on my school work.
Ever since, I've made it my goal to do something with my life.
Ever since, my heart has been screaming at me to climb the tallest mountain.
Ever since, i read about practically everything.
Ever since, i try harder.
Ever since, i give everything my all.
Ever since, i strive for something better.
Ever since, i try to mend my wounds and soldier on.
Ever since, i hesitate to open up.
Ever since, i trust a select few.
Ever since, i march like there is a tomorrow because,
For a while, it felt like there wasn't.

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Chill Out homie

There is a time to feel stressed.
There is a time to feel overwhelmed.
There is a time to worry about the future and panic when things are not going your way.
There are times when you cannot take it anymore 
And you feel like you are falling apart
But...
There is also a time to sit down,
Relax,
And just let go. 
Because there is no use in overthinking overanalyzing things that you cannot control.
So when you're at a bar with close friends drinking and listening to live music,
There will come a moment, a brief moment, where nothing matters and you can actually breathe.
So take that moment, 
Relish in it, 
Thoroughly enjoy it, 
And with a single deep breath, 
Take the weight off your shoulders.